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Monday, April 28, 2008
Joke of the daymum: eh cina mati da jalan?
dad: huh? mama nampak?
mum:tak la. kan mama kerje.
mum:(pauses then laughs and hits dad's arm)
dad: bagos eh cina. kalau mati masi boleh jalan.
get it?. haha. lame. but i gotta admit.
it was funny.
i dont have work for a week.
yeay!
but god. its so effin boring at home.
i wanna go out tmr. its free ben and jerrys ice cream day!
plus. i gotta go collect that graduation robe stuff.
hmpft. the lecehness of having to graduate.
Labels: shiela misses school yo.
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Sunday, April 20, 2008
it sunday.
not just any sunday.
cos this sunday, im not spending it with my family.
or rather my whole family is spending sunday without me.
and its all because of this bloody sickness.
i think i kinda sorta fought with someone.i told him i'll msg him when i feel less moody cos i didn't wanna make him worry like he did last night. i told him i dont know whats up with my mood swings. i told him i think it's pms or maybe cos im sick and always too tired to do anything. thats why i get annoyed and agitated so easily. i told him.
I.TOLD.HIM.bloody hell.
but he still has to go and say:
'fine.. you're right. don't tell me why or what is making you feel moody..haha in fact dont tell me anything. its all making sense now.. haha man this is so common i get it too many times.'fuck you for adding the haha's. i know you didnt mean them.but i know you meant every fucking thing you said otherwise.fuck you for being so pushy.fuck you for making me so darn mad.no.you know what?fuck me.i knew i shouldn't have fallen.i knew i shouldn't have started caring.i knew you werent cut out for the part.i knew it.i knew.but still i went for it.for god fucking sake shiela.when will you ever listen to yourself?.im not ready for this.im not ready for your possesive and protecive ness.im not ready for any of it.so can i just back off now?.you dont even try to understand me.YOU DONT EVEN TRY.you dont think before you speak.you dont think about how it might make me feel.in fact, i dont think you dont think of anything.maybe its just the mood talking.but maybe its just reality sinking in.i cant do this.i just cant.is it already to late to walk away?Labels: jump on the bandwagon.
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Saturday, April 19, 2008
wow. its been over a week since i went online.
so i started work on thursday.
yup.
thursday.
who in the right mind decided to let the newbies start work on a THURSDAY?.
oh. just incase you're wondering.
im a...
FIELDWORK SUPERVISOR.
haha.
heres the down side.
i've got the
'singapore heat wave' sickness. (according to hafiz)
always seems to happed before a big event.
say, the start or end of a school term, exams, whatever else.
strange. but true.
its saturday and im home.
because im sick.
so its my recovery weekend.
yes. im completely aware how boring this post is.
but what do you expect from a sickly one?
oh. i 've been to the doctor and i soo agree with dila.
he only bloody hell gave me flu pills, lozenges and cough mixture.
no anti biotics, nothing for my headaches or fever.
wtf?
he gave me everything i already had at home.
a freaking waste of time and money and im still not well.
im still coughing like a wheezing dying old man grasping for his last breath.
f*ck this shit.
mum claims my body is too 'heaty'
i feel dizzy whenever i lie down and get back up.
my body aches from head to toe
my nose is either blocked of leaking at anytime of the day
my head throbbs with a rhythmic pulse running thru every core of my brain cells
my eyes are 'ozzing' with a pus like liquid instead of teardrops than glue my eyes shut whenever i sleep.
i've got ulcer on my GUMS. and not the back gums, the ones that are holding my bottom front teeth together that make it so bloody painful just to drink water. yes. WATER.
i've got so much more complaining to do but
i cant concentrate because:
THERES A BLOODY CHINESE PRAYER THING KARA-OK LIKE WAYANG WITHOUT THE PEOPLE ACTING IN IT GOING UNDER THE BLOCK OPPOSITE MY HOUSE. ITS SO BLOODY ANNOYING. ITS LIKE LISTENING TO AN OLD CHINESE SCARRY MOVIE WITHOUT SUBTITLES. I WISH I COULD SHOVE THAT BLOODIE MICROPHONE DOWN HER GOD DAMN SCREAMING THROAT.
ITS THAT BAD.
its my recovery weekend dammit. couldnt they think of a better timing to reannact 'gates of hell reopens' part seven thousand and twelve?
but even then.
i slept thru it this afternoon after my flu meds.
imagine how well that pill worked to make me fall asleep.
now i cant concentrate on anything i do.
bad enough that being sick has caused me to loose my ability to multitask,
with the chinese shit going on downstairs, i cant even single task!
god help me.
do i really deserve this kinda punishment?
if i call the cops and complain about the noise.. will they entertain me or will they shrug it off as a case of a malay racist nutcase?.this is a little old but heres my current obsession:
i nine- seven days of lonely
Igot a call today
At 3 AM
It's what you didn't say that told me I'd get hurt again.
So I hung up the phone
and I screamed out loud.
I felt so alone, should have said the things I'm thinking now.
Ohh, I never thought it'd be so hard to let you go.
(I just want you to know)
Tell me how I'm gonna make it, you're the one I can't forget.
It's like I'm running in slow motion in a nightmare that never ends.
When I try to face it when I wake up, I hate the way reality sets in.
God, I wish you could hold me through the seven days of lonely.
The seven days of lonely, yeah
Oh it's deafening,
the bitter truth.
I'm doing everything for the first time again without you.
I pretend I'm okay,(i pretend i'm okay)
but it aches inside.
There's got to be a way that's better than just getting by.
Ohh, never thought it'd be so hard to let you go.
(I just want you to know)
Tell me how I'm gonna make it, you're the one I can't forget.
It's like I'm running in slow motion in a nightmare that never ends.
When I try to face it when I wake up, I hate the way reality sets in.
God, I wish you could hold me through the seven days of lonely.
My heart is speeding up and slowing down to know I know it's over, it's over.
And can you die of heartbreak, to die for love lost young?
I pray to find it again, oh again.
Got a call todayAt 3 AM
It's what you didn't say that hurts again.
Tell me how I'm gonna make it you're the one I can't forget.
It's like I'm running in slow motion in a nightmare that never ends.
When I try to face it when I wake up, I hate the way reality sets in.
God, I wish you could hold methrough the seven days of lonely.
ohhhhhh
The seven days of lonely,
ohhhhhh
Through the seven days of lonely,
got a call today at 3am it's what you didn't say that hurts again.
The seven days of lonely.
Ohhhhhh.
how is this possibly a good thing?.
Labels: i've been thinking about you just a little too much
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Tuesday, April 08, 2008
F*CKING HELL!
I GOT A JOB!!!!
:)
heh heh.
and its all thanks to maisarah zulkifly.
they havent called her tho.
i hope they do.
:(
work starts on the 17th of april.
exciting!
oh shit. there goes slacking days.
Labels: here we go again
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Thursday, April 03, 2008
birthday shoutouts:
2nd April
Happy birthday mummy!
3rd April
Happy birthday adilah!
Happy birthday zul!
Happy birthday.. pilot's mummy!
haha. ok the last one is sooo unnecessary.
today is not such a good day.
i shall blog when im in the mood.
loves to all.
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Monday, April 28, 2008
Joke of the daymum: eh cina mati da jalan?
dad: huh? mama nampak?
mum:tak la. kan mama kerje.
mum:(pauses then laughs and hits dad's arm)
dad: bagos eh cina. kalau mati masi boleh jalan.
get it?. haha. lame. but i gotta admit.
it was funny.
i dont have work for a week.
yeay!
but god. its so effin boring at home.
i wanna go out tmr. its free ben and jerrys ice cream day!
plus. i gotta go collect that graduation robe stuff.
hmpft. the lecehness of having to graduate.
Labels: shiela misses school yo.
♥
Sunday, April 20, 2008
it sunday.
not just any sunday.
cos this sunday, im not spending it with my family.
or rather my whole family is spending sunday without me.
and its all because of this bloody sickness.
i think i kinda sorta fought with someone.i told him i'll msg him when i feel less moody cos i didn't wanna make him worry like he did last night. i told him i dont know whats up with my mood swings. i told him i think it's pms or maybe cos im sick and always too tired to do anything. thats why i get annoyed and agitated so easily. i told him.
I.TOLD.HIM.bloody hell.
but he still has to go and say:
'fine.. you're right. don't tell me why or what is making you feel moody..haha in fact dont tell me anything. its all making sense now.. haha man this is so common i get it too many times.'fuck you for adding the haha's. i know you didnt mean them.but i know you meant every fucking thing you said otherwise.fuck you for being so pushy.fuck you for making me so darn mad.no.you know what?fuck me.i knew i shouldn't have fallen.i knew i shouldn't have started caring.i knew you werent cut out for the part.i knew it.i knew.but still i went for it.for god fucking sake shiela.when will you ever listen to yourself?.im not ready for this.im not ready for your possesive and protecive ness.im not ready for any of it.so can i just back off now?.you dont even try to understand me.YOU DONT EVEN TRY.you dont think before you speak.you dont think about how it might make me feel.in fact, i dont think you dont think of anything.maybe its just the mood talking.but maybe its just reality sinking in.i cant do this.i just cant.is it already to late to walk away?Labels: jump on the bandwagon.
♥
Saturday, April 19, 2008
wow. its been over a week since i went online.
so i started work on thursday.
yup.
thursday.
who in the right mind decided to let the newbies start work on a THURSDAY?.
oh. just incase you're wondering.
im a...
FIELDWORK SUPERVISOR.
haha.
heres the down side.
i've got the
'singapore heat wave' sickness. (according to hafiz)
always seems to happed before a big event.
say, the start or end of a school term, exams, whatever else.
strange. but true.
its saturday and im home.
because im sick.
so its my recovery weekend.
yes. im completely aware how boring this post is.
but what do you expect from a sickly one?
oh. i 've been to the doctor and i soo agree with dila.
he only bloody hell gave me flu pills, lozenges and cough mixture.
no anti biotics, nothing for my headaches or fever.
wtf?
he gave me everything i already had at home.
a freaking waste of time and money and im still not well.
im still coughing like a wheezing dying old man grasping for his last breath.
f*ck this shit.
mum claims my body is too 'heaty'
i feel dizzy whenever i lie down and get back up.
my body aches from head to toe
my nose is either blocked of leaking at anytime of the day
my head throbbs with a rhythmic pulse running thru every core of my brain cells
my eyes are 'ozzing' with a pus like liquid instead of teardrops than glue my eyes shut whenever i sleep.
i've got ulcer on my GUMS. and not the back gums, the ones that are holding my bottom front teeth together that make it so bloody painful just to drink water. yes. WATER.
i've got so much more complaining to do but
i cant concentrate because:
THERES A BLOODY CHINESE PRAYER THING KARA-OK LIKE WAYANG WITHOUT THE PEOPLE ACTING IN IT GOING UNDER THE BLOCK OPPOSITE MY HOUSE. ITS SO BLOODY ANNOYING. ITS LIKE LISTENING TO AN OLD CHINESE SCARRY MOVIE WITHOUT SUBTITLES. I WISH I COULD SHOVE THAT BLOODIE MICROPHONE DOWN HER GOD DAMN SCREAMING THROAT.
ITS THAT BAD.
its my recovery weekend dammit. couldnt they think of a better timing to reannact 'gates of hell reopens' part seven thousand and twelve?
but even then.
i slept thru it this afternoon after my flu meds.
imagine how well that pill worked to make me fall asleep.
now i cant concentrate on anything i do.
bad enough that being sick has caused me to loose my ability to multitask,
with the chinese shit going on downstairs, i cant even single task!
god help me.
do i really deserve this kinda punishment?
if i call the cops and complain about the noise.. will they entertain me or will they shrug it off as a case of a malay racist nutcase?.this is a little old but heres my current obsession:
i nine- seven days of lonely
Igot a call today
At 3 AM
It's what you didn't say that told me I'd get hurt again.
So I hung up the phone
and I screamed out loud.
I felt so alone, should have said the things I'm thinking now.
Ohh, I never thought it'd be so hard to let you go.
(I just want you to know)
Tell me how I'm gonna make it, you're the one I can't forget.
It's like I'm running in slow motion in a nightmare that never ends.
When I try to face it when I wake up, I hate the way reality sets in.
God, I wish you could hold me through the seven days of lonely.
The seven days of lonely, yeah
Oh it's deafening,
the bitter truth.
I'm doing everything for the first time again without you.
I pretend I'm okay,(i pretend i'm okay)
but it aches inside.
There's got to be a way that's better than just getting by.
Ohh, never thought it'd be so hard to let you go.
(I just want you to know)
Tell me how I'm gonna make it, you're the one I can't forget.
It's like I'm running in slow motion in a nightmare that never ends.
When I try to face it when I wake up, I hate the way reality sets in.
God, I wish you could hold me through the seven days of lonely.
My heart is speeding up and slowing down to know I know it's over, it's over.
And can you die of heartbreak, to die for love lost young?
I pray to find it again, oh again.
Got a call todayAt 3 AM
It's what you didn't say that hurts again.
Tell me how I'm gonna make it you're the one I can't forget.
It's like I'm running in slow motion in a nightmare that never ends.
When I try to face it when I wake up, I hate the way reality sets in.
God, I wish you could hold methrough the seven days of lonely.
ohhhhhh
The seven days of lonely,
ohhhhhh
Through the seven days of lonely,
got a call today at 3am it's what you didn't say that hurts again.
The seven days of lonely.
Ohhhhhh.
how is this possibly a good thing?.
Labels: i've been thinking about you just a little too much
♥
Tuesday, April 08, 2008
F*CKING HELL!
I GOT A JOB!!!!
:)
heh heh.
and its all thanks to maisarah zulkifly.
they havent called her tho.
i hope they do.
:(
work starts on the 17th of april.
exciting!
oh shit. there goes slacking days.
Labels: here we go again
♥
Thursday, April 03, 2008
birthday shoutouts:
2nd April
Happy birthday mummy!
3rd April
Happy birthday adilah!
Happy birthday zul!
Happy birthday.. pilot's mummy!
haha. ok the last one is sooo unnecessary.
today is not such a good day.
i shall blog when im in the mood.
loves to all.
